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[31 Dec 2004|05:26pm] |
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so im in portland now
it was lame at first its getting better i went to the tube where the local cokehead and hipsters hang out and danc4ed to some grooves
been writing new songs
recorded some stuff with keyboards on it and am working on music with noah we might play some shows up here
still have more projects down in la awaiting when i get home
life is well
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[08 Nov 2004|08:25am] |
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so im homeless again im broke i feel liek shit i have hardly any real friends
haha but i got band equipment and a new project "shooting for skars"
and it sounds kinda liek at the drive in meets the used im singing/screaming but i wanna add keys were tryign a keyboardist friday :)
so it will be a wierd emo/punk cross over with a gothic kind of touch
hopefully 16 year olds dig it am im responsible for a mass suicide
i cant belive i actually wasted my time updating this bullshit maybe there are people who still look at it haha
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| life |
[02 Nov 2004|07:13am] |
OK SO I DONT KNOW WHATS GOIGN ON AT HOME
my roomates are off there loop
certain people shooting dope around me and stuff gotta be away from that shit
other than the typical chaos i GOT A BAND NOW singing with me and my friend robert on guitar were just putting this shit in order more updates later got practice tonight tho
ummmm more partys after a off on loop of lastyear what can i say im sad wityhout socialization
later you fuckwods
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| stoned and up late in this shithole losangeles |
[23 Oct 2004|04:27am] |
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yea so im stoned at roberts no not the crazy black drugdealer jazz guy those days are over but an old friend from art class
lots of grafiti ...art...projects...musicyay we got a band were gonna play dead milkmen covers haha
anyway fight the system lets be dorks and listen to slayer fuck it this chronic ha sme soo high anyway yes so fck ya
and KENNY CALL ME YOU DIPSHIT WE CAN HANG OUT AT THE SMEL AND GAWK AT EMO KIDS
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| everyoen everything.... |
[17 Sep 2004|05:17am] |
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YEA EVERYTHING IS INTERESTING YET NOT FUN ENOUGH ANYMORE TO INTEREST ME....
fuck all these fake paople
fuck there fake clubs
fake status
and lame excuse fopr so called friendship thats merely a handshake and fake smile one or 2 nights a week im done]
now im living with anelle in 818 again
its cool all is well i guess evryone hates everyone i hate you all well most of you i wish alot of people would evaporate into nothingness
yea i guess my only real love is ART DESTRUCTION and MUSIC
KENNY WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU !!!!!!!!!!!
call me sometime or uhh message me online i miss ya
..oh on a positive not i got to hang wiht one of my best buds christian for a few days well he is out of town now :(
but hopefully hell be back one day and well ahve a kick ass rock band together
untill then fuck off kiddies
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[20 Jun 2004|04:37pm] |
ELECTROCUTION IS TONIGHT
BAD ASS INDUSTRIAL CLUB AT BOARDNERS FOR 5 BUCKS
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other than that i think ill plaster myself in glitter
drink a shitload of alchohol and wind up somewhere i wont remeber
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| RADIATE THIS FREQUENCY AND SHOW ME JUST WHAT THE HELL YOU MEAN! |
[09 Jun 2004|05:41am] |
yea so its 5 am i ahvent updated in forever after ana died i had stayed very recluse for a while now im starting to enjoy the clublife again partys big hollywood hills houses trashed
goth club elegance disrupted by deathrock mannerisms
and a new found love of
anorexic coked out models in mullets wiht cellphones glittering to the sounds of the rapture at the beauty bar
ha its such a different vibe maybe more pretentious than goth
but humourous at the same time
i guess these days i been hanging out wiht fags models and disko sex trash
enjoying the electroclash and shiny shiny discoballs
i mean fuck ghoulskool is gone
i still make it to bats buti liek to party at dark disko when the sun comes up
i love my new friend lio shes sooo cool
my lil euro model friend we can sit and listen to gay tekno and brit pop for hours
still hanging wiht anel and with my glamrocker friend dominick as we cruise the sunset strip in his beamer recruiting crazy sexy freaks to our party filled rendevous in the shit hole we call LA
vincent rocks too my lil fag loves dead or alive more than any of you
hahha i have had so much fun lately modeling shoots
video shoots crazy partys
and wonderful crazy stressful adventures wiht my lovely friend kaitlyn that make me smile in the end
i hope me and her get a place she is very sweet and fun to be around
i miss my kenny and my xtian
I DONT HAVE TIME FOR FORMER FRIENDS THAT GLORIFY THERE OWN IGNORANCE
BY IMPOSING HYPOCRITICAL ACCUSATIONS ON MY CURRENT FRIENDS THAT USUALLY STRUCTURING THE CHAOS THE MAKES YOU A MANNEQUIN MODELING FOR THE LATEST SURREAL GOSSIP OF HOLLYWOOD TRASH
I FUCKING LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!!!
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| fuck this shit is lame |
[22 Apr 2004|08:59pm] |
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hey im bored as fuck
i wanan party anyone wanan get crazy and chaotic message me online
imskrawlingskars on aim
HAHAHAHAHHAHA
so yea boredom kills huh
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[31 Jan 2004|01:25pm] |
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maybe ill stick aorund for a little while till i scan these old ass entires and print em out
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| live hjournal is fucking lame |
[24 Jan 2004|02:10am] |
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ok this is lame willima and kenny did away with there lame journal thisis no longer fun im gopnna destroy this account so long fuckerssssssssssssssss
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[15 Jan 2004|05:45am] |
some time lifes experiences are like a window its there you didnt put it there but u run to it.
you look you see what lies behind the curtain it can be shocking or soothing
it can be your answer or your disagreement
your comfort or your chaos
but theres always a light on the other side
and staying theres the light will pass
the darkness emerges and one can become lost
as long as the flame of desire burns inside you heart you can light your way through and lost path
to bad the flames out of control and everything is just too visable
the dark isnt always a bad thing......
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[14 Jan 2004|12:01pm] |
when all the numbers swim together
and all the shadows center
when doors forced open shut again
a fly trap and a petal
when dreams made real become less sweet
the orchid and the metal
when all the charachters form a sighn
and everyone is level
when all teh spirits fall in line
and center peace by steele
but in the morning after the light i fall in love with the light
PSYCHIC TV COLD STEEL.....
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[13 Jan 2004|07:14am] |
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sitting at home on the computer all night hung out with my friend gennipher last night bought a current 93 cd from amoeba jeff just called me i guess skye is at his hosue right now what a trip
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| ghoulskool |
[08 Jan 2004|08:30am] |
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last night went to ghoulskool with martin william and amber and jesika it was cool anel showed up they played heroin is so passe one of the best songs of the night my hats at martins so i guess ill get it back whenever me and eddie and everyoe smoked weed and i got fuckin drunk thats it no drugs like i said smoking weed is the shit these days and alchohol yep i ahve a nasty hangover ehhhhhhhh
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[07 Jan 2004|02:52am] |
1. What is your name: BLAKE......
2. Astrological sign: LEO IM A CAT
3. Nicknames: SYLK,,ALLEY CAT,CHOCO THE KITTY CAT
4. What does your LJ name stand for:
REFLECTIONS OV THEE WOUNDS OV LIFE
5. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: face, then hair
6. What song do you swear was written about you or your life:..
"CURRENT 93.."ALL THE STARS ARE DEAD NOW"
LISTEN TOO IT!!!!!!
7. What's the best cd you own:
CURRENT 93 "AS THE WORLD DISSAPEARS
8. Disney character: ALICE.....
9. Do you have posters on your wall? If so, what?:
WELL IF HAD A HOUSE..CURRENT 93 DOGS BLOOD RISING" THUDERPERFECT MIND" IMPERIUM"
THRILL KILL KULT TOUR POSTERS "MARILYN MANSON TAKING A SHIT"
VARIOUS COLLAGE ART,SUPREME VAMPYRIC EVIL C.O.F. SKINNY PUPPY THE LIST GOES ON
10. What do you keep on your shelves?
CANDLES CANVAS ART CURRENT 93 CD CASES,
PICTURES OF SHANE AND DEADBOY AND I
11. Describe your favorite pair of pajamas:
OLD MANSON SHIRT AND A SLIP
12. Do you sleep in any unusual positions:
Have You Ever.... LIKE A CURLED UP KITTY CAT
13. Mooned anyone: FUCK YEA NIGGA
14. Been on TV: YUP YUP
15. Been on the radio: Only if you count sitting on top of a radio, then yes. I've been on the radio.
16. Been in a mosh pit: Yep.STARTED THEM
17. Gave someone a piggy back ride: Yes.
18. Terrorized a babysitter: FUCK YEA
19. Did you cry when you scraped your knee:
NAH I RAN CAUSE A CRAZY MEXICAN WAS ABOUT TO SHOOT ME FOR PAINTING SHIT ON HIS TRUCK AND INTERRUPTING HIS ORAL SEX SESSION WITH A TRANNY ON SANTAMONICA BLVD AT 3 AM
20. Were you afraid of the dark: I HAVE BEEN THE DARK
21. If you were to star in a movie, what kind of movie would it be: APOCALYPTIC SLASHER FLICK
22. What is your dream car:
MY DADS HARLEY DAVIDSON 79 SPORTSTER
23. Ever wished on a shooting star:
IVE WISHED THE BEST TO STARS THAT SHOT
24. Best Halloween costume you ever wore: UM MY WARDROBE
25. Do you carry any weapons on you:
SOEMTIMES HAMMERS, KNIVES, BROKEN GLASS, BOX CUTTERS,
BUT ALWAYS MY AMMO BOX
26. Name something you can't get enough of: CURRENT 93
27. Describe yourself in 3 adjectives: intriguing, shocking, glamourous
28. How do you release stress: PAINTING SHIT ON LA WALLS SCRIBING LETTERS INTO MTA BUSSES
LISTEING TO CURRENT 93 AND PSYCHICK TV
29. Been to a foreign country: NEW ORLEANS BUT THATS NOT FORIEGN SO NO
20. Broken a bone: IVE BROKEN ANIMAL BONES IVE FOUND AND GLUED THEM TO ART
31. What color is your hair naturally:
ARYAN BLONDE OR LIGHT BROWN
32. How many fillings do you have:
ONE MORE THANKS TO ROGUE FROM THE CRUXSHADOWS :)
33. Worst feeling in the world:
KNOWING YOUR CLOSE FRIEND DIED
34. Is the glass half empty or half full: EMPTY
35. Last thing you downloaded: PROBABLY SOME WIERD PORNO
36. Do you catch yourself using online terms in your real life: IM NOT A FUCKING RETARD
37. What do you think people think of you:
THESE DAYS I DONT GIVE A FUCK
I JUST HOPE THEY SEE THE GOOD IN ME AND TAKE WHAT THEY MAY FROM IT
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| ORAL SEX AND CHOCOLATE PIE |
[07 Jan 2004|02:28am] |
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sitting here eating chocolate pie
watching jack ass
recieving oral sex "damn lip rings hurt"
drinking cream soda
on another note
no more word on tj yet and GHOULSKOOL IS TOMORROW
CANT WAIT TO BE THERE WILLIAM GO GO GO
I WANT KENNY TO GO TOO
anyway memorial night at ghoulskool
everyone GO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my friend made me feel better told me to sop thinking so much relax take time off dark stuff
yea ghoulsskool for shure but im chilling on obsessing on the deathrock and occult aspects of life
time to just listen to some indie rock and chill with frog
wait a nminute indie rock damn i dunno damn dany warhols thats how it all started
blah blah blah
atleast i feel a lil better
saw william and david archer
MARTINS OK YAY
talked to jesika
the apartment fell through but its a better idea anyway
the managers daughter was a punk wanna be chola bitch
and if i brought my boys in it would be a big ass war to deal with we need not get into that shit right now
gears still in jail i guess
blah blah blah talked to jesika hope to see her
RIP ANAICE RIP TJ?
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| FUCK DRUGS |
[05 Jan 2004|10:06am] |
IM IN FUCKING TEARS MY DAY JUST STARTED IM CRYING MY FUCKI G EYES OUT FIRST THING I DID IS LISTEN TO DANDY WARHOLS HEROIN IS SO PASSE AND ACTUALLY TOOK IT THE WAY IT WAS MENT TO BE TAKEN ITS FUCKING TRUE AND KENNY CALLED AS SOON AS GET OFF CAME ON BY THE BAND KENNY GET OFF OF IT YOU FELT FOR A MINUTE SO GET OFF
EVERYONE ELSE
LITYSEN TO HERONLY SIN BY ROZZ WILLIAMS
FUCKING KLISTN TO IT DAMMIT
EVERYONE NEEDS TO
FUCKING LISTEN
THE SAME FATE MAY AWAIT U MY FRIEND DEAD END YORU ONLY MY ONLY HER ONLY SIN
HEROnlysIN
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[05 Jan 2004|02:49am] |
THE SAME FATE MAY AWAIT YOU MY FRIEND
DEAD END
YOUR ONLY MY ONLY HerOnlysIN
"ROZZ WILLIAMS" 1997
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| sadly another death |
[05 Jan 2004|02:44am] |
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well fuck after losing a beautiful wonderful friend ana
i now find out TJ vanshock from fearcult dies as well
guess he od on dope too fuck i think its time for us all to learn this shit sux no more please we are killing our culture
this is why our scene is dead let it lay drugs cant revive it for damn sure
RIP
ANTHONY FRANK aka tj vanshock
IMSKRAWLINGSKARS:
this was written by the singer of his band
I have just heard from a very credible source that Van Shock has
possibly died from an over dose.
He has not returned any of my calls recently, and his behaviour for
the past 5 months has been self destructive to say the least. I take
this rumor very seriously and I hope that if anyone has any
information to let me know.
please if anyone knows anything contact me at fearcult@aol.com
-matt
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| the skeleton kiss |
[04 Jan 2004|05:41am] |
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OK THIS IS FUKED UP HORRIBLE SO FUCKING GOD AWFUL MAKES ME CRY YA KNOW WHEN PEOPLE DIE ITS SAD BUT WHEN SUCH BEAUTIFUL ECCENTRIC CHARASMATIC SOULS FADE AWAY ITS MORE THAN SAD
ITS UNFAIR I REALLY GOT A WAKE UP CALL
FOR SOEM REASON MARTIN WANTED TO BUY DOPE HE HAD 400 BUCKS TO WASTE SO HE GOT IT FROM MY FRIEND SERENA BUT AS WE SHOWD UP AT SERENAS BILLY IS HOLDING HER AND I CAN SEE THE GUILT AND FEAR IN HER OWN EYES SHE SAIS ANA IS DEAD
HEROIN OVERDOSE ....
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